Even though I love Cory sooo much, I do miss this at times...

Going to Las Vegas in 26 days. Anyone know anything that I have to absolutely do while I am there?

March 26th The Fray is playing, In Auckland New Zealand. please someone go for me/

Departure Flight Date Departs Arrives
Southwest Airlines
Portland, OR (PDX) to Las Vegas (LAS): 0 Stop(s) 30Mar09 (Mon) 9:55 AM 12:00 PM




Return Flight Date Departs Arrives
Southwest Airlines
Las Vegas (LAS) to Portland, OR (PDX): 0 Stop(s) 01Apr09 (Wed) 7:55 PM 10:20 PM






I'll be in Vegas.



someone show me around. I'll be 21 come hang! show me a good time

if you haven't seen twilight, I highly, higgggghly suggest you see it asap, I am seeing it tonight again for the second time its def an amazing movie...


Robert Pattinson...


please marry me.



him and Ryan Gosling... top 2 hottest most good lookin' men in the world!

Yesterday, Jessica, Garrett, Cory and I went to Lunch at Old Chicago and my mom had called to tell me something I hang up, not less then three mins later she called again.. crying she couldn't feel her neck she was in a car accident and my heart dropped. mind you In my 20 yrs of living my moms never been in a wreck. When she said she couldn't feel her neck a million things ran through my mind.. is she paralized? is she going to die if she moves her neck? we left I get there and its some fucking 50 year old meth head with no teeth driving his MOTHERS car. and my moms boss was there cause my mom had been on her way back to work and I get there and I freaked out on the guy telling him what a piece of fucking shit he was.. Cory pops in says driving your moms car? aren't we a little old to be doing that? lol. thank god my mom is alright, Cory and I had to take her to the hospital they took xrays and a c/t. she just has a super super sore neck back and colar bone. Hospitals in general creep me out to the max but I am really use to them having to live in and out of one for 6 or so months with my dad having cancer. but going to them is a scary thing I always think something is going to happen thats horrible. I've always had a huge fear of losing my mom, and my sister and now that fear is just got worse and worse like no other.

ulgh. I need to go to the doctors and get my anxioty checked out. i think I would feel much better.

So my boyfriend from High School went and joined the marines after he graduated down in california, him and I weren't ever right for eachother our relationship was based on all of his lies he told me and him cheating, the only thing that went well was our friendship and it was always good thats pretty much the only thing that was good ever... well we talked a couple of times amonth while he was in Iraq and afagan. so he could tell me he was still alive and make sure everything was good with me. apparently he had a girlfriend which he had never told me about and about a week or so before he got married, he called to tell me. anywho I had just found out a few months back he beat the shit out of his wife and her and I started talking after all of this happended to her and we shared lies he told both of us, and just numerous things and I had felt so bad for her and I had so much sympathy for her... well two weeks ago was the end of his trial and she had signed her divorce papers, and I text her yesterday seeing how she was doing cause I know all of this was pretty hard on her, and her daughter... and she tells me hes out, and how their talking, and also hanging out and how they might get back together?

HONESTLY PEOPLE THESE DAYS! WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON IN ANYONES HEAD!!!!???!!!!

Mind you he has no idea that i know what happended or where he has been for the past year since I haven't gotten a call from him. ulgh people irrate me so much~!

Four years ago today, I realized what it was like to lose someone so dear to my heart it ached so bad that I wished my life would just have paused 6 monthsfrom that day and kept it forever and ever and just rewind it when I could and never go past May 2nd, 2004. my dad passed away, my mom sent me and my sister to the mall and I came home and I was so blank that I didn't know what to do or say my life just ran through over and over and over and over hoping it was a dream and nothing like cancer would have been a problem in my family. that night I went to Hooters with some friends I couldn't take being home I couldn't take seeing the sadness in everyones eyes I was selfish and I just couldn't/didn't want to be sad. I hate it.

A girl comes in to my work every once an awhile and I went to high school with her, and her dad passed away 3 years ago in November and I hadn't seen her in a while and I had just been thinking about her the other day and she is always so sweet and smiley and just has a super good heart and she had remember my dad had passed away and she asked me about it, and I told her it was 4 years ago today and she just looked at me and told me, she is a firm believer in everything happening for a reason and she thinks thats why she had came in tonight and told me my dad would be so proud of me and how pretty I am and how much I've grown. and she asked me if she could give me a hug and so I went around and gave her a hug and she just told me how awesome I am and how strong I am and how once something like this happens to you, it just opens up your eyes to the world and makes everything change so much, she told me not to take any shit from anyone what so ever. talking to her just gave me a feeling that everything will be okay. I am glad she came in, and I think there was a reason for it.

I wish things were back the way they use to be when I was a child. I had everything so good, but most of all I had my dad the fall air reminds me of him, in one week today it will be 4 years I believe since hes been gone, and I hate every minute of it, I feel like hiding in a hole and not coming out til spring, it's so hard getting things accomplished without having him here to tell me hes proud of me, I think thats what is setting me back from going back to school cause he isn't here to push me, he isn't here when cory and I get in fights, he isn't here to tell me things will be okay...

So I went to go put my clothes in the dryer... I open the door and its roasting in the laundry room... Itouch the dryer and its burning HOT mind you NOTHING is in it and it hasn't been used in a few hours I turn in on while the door is open and its bright orange on the inside and I hear this poof like it caught fire and smells like burnt crap.... REAL FUCKING GREAT I wish I had enough fucking money to move into a better apartment. ULGHHHHHH REALLY FUCKING GREAT. good thing I checked it before I went to sleep.